I have been having a hard time with my auto immune diseases. I have not been working and I’m not sure what I’m going to do. I’m trying to get on short term disability. I sure hope that goes through. I was doing really good until we had a loss in the family. It bugs me so bad that my emotions can make me hurt so bad. I’m sorry for complaining but maybe writing about it will help me. I’ll at least try it.
I have so many things I want and need to do. I feel like I’m trapped. Dealing with the grief of loosing my former self and abilities hurt and makes me angry. That does not help anything. I’m legit my own worst enemy. My boss has been working with me and really supportive and understanding. I hope I can keep working so bad. I’m going into pain management. There is nothing left my Dr’s say that they can do. I’m scared of getting dependant on opiates. If I can work and have a better quality of life, I guess it’s worth it?
I’ve been exercising more and I’m about to start swimming. That is low impact and I can get cardio. I love to snorkel in the ocean and chase the 🦀. I’d love to learn how to 🏄. I’d love to do a POTA on the beach. I attempted that while I was in Florida the last time. I failed and don’t have any content or POTA credit but I learning something. I had a spare EFHW but I had never turned it before. I guess I’ve cried enough fro this post.
Thanks for taking the time to read.